2003-12-28
@ 6:07 p.m. I can't believe I'm actually updating from home. I have finally decided to make a doctor's appointment soon. I have been feeling crappy for a long time and should get myself looked at. I'm usually nauseous, out of breath, dizzy, feeling like I'm skipping taking my meds(even though I'm taking them regularly), shaky, and constantly on the verge of tears. Hopefully someone will be able to figure out what the hell is wrong with me. Christmas was good. I got a drum, watches, earrings, books, calendars, clothes and games. Pretty much the same stuff I usually get. Then Mike's four kids came over for Christmas dinner and we all played games afterwards.
Other than that I have been slacking and procrastinating. I feel like my anti-deppressants are making me ill and I should get off them asap. I feel too fat to go out into the world, and I wish I didn't have to. I hate my parents being home all the time for vacation while I have to work. Soon I will have to lie to my mom and create something I"ve done for my paper. The truth is I've done nothing and I'm not sure I ever will. Then we will have my favorite dinner vokda pasta and I'll feel like shit for lying. I hate my life so much. I'm trapped by addictions I won't speak of here and hopefully I won't live to be very old. Oh my gosh Rick Steve's Europe is on and he's in Munich, Germany. I love pbs travel shows. And I love Rick he's my homey. Peace out. Older Entries |