2003-10-12
@ 2:17 a.m. I am exhausted and yet I can't sleep. Well I will be able to sleep soon because I ended up taking cold pills. I'm really anxious because I fucked up big time, just like I always do. I backed up my beautiful new car into the garage door as it was closing. Can you believe I'm almost 23.5 years old? I don't want to wake up and face Mom and Mike tomorrow. I don't want to wake up earlier than 10 o'clock if I can help it. I should get up and do damage control by telling my parents how I busted the garage door before they find the disaster on their own. I was TOTALLY sober when this happened too. Just extremely exhausted at the same time. FUCK ME. I hate the weather here. I need to get used to the cold, gloomy rain. Autumn is beautiful in Ellensburg. I would love to be riding my bike during the daytime, enjoying the colorful leaves. I think I am cursed to have bad luck with cars of any kind. My first car ever was a 1991 Ford Escort. It broke down in the middle of a busy intersection with the timing belt snapped. Yep, that was fun. Then I got into an accident and totaled that car. My second car was a maroon 1993 Ford Escort. I bought it from this girl who was leaving the country to live in Germany. She had smoked in the car, and when I started smoking, I smoked in there all the time. I had puked in it when I was bulimic. But it had fucking problems too. I rear ended somebody while driving it in Ellensburg. They tried to claim all these fake fucking energy and get all kinds of money. They were bloodsucking liars. But we all know what happened to this car in the end. It was stolen by someone I knew and he totaled it in Tacoma. Isn't that sexy? And now, not even a month after getting my first new car, my foot slips in the garage and I crash into the door. Is this because cars are evil? Do I have bad Carma. Ok I"m gonna play word games before the pills kick in. Pray for me. Older Entries |