2003-08-14
@ 9:33 p.m. Yesterday I saw Nick again briefly and made out with him, but I had way too much shit to do. I'm pretty sure he was using me for sex though. He asked if I wanted to sleep with him and I turned it down. That goes against my celibacy until in love rule unfortunately. I then remembered that I'm fat and that men think fat girls will sleep with them automatically because we don't get much attention from guys. I tried knocking on his door today before I moved out but he either wasn't there or just didn't answer. His music was playing and that's why I think he ignored me. Yay, another stupid-ass fling for me. My mom, stepdad and I actually moved my things from my dorm room to the car with NOT EVEN ONE FIGHT. I couldn't believe it. Obviously I'm back in Olympia now. It hasn't yet hit me that this is home now, but I bet it will soon. It's cool to see my family, although my sister has a boyfriend so I probably get to hang with her too much. I don't want to leave the cocoon of college behind now that I'm done. I won't miss the homework at all(even though I still have my thesis to rewrite), I'm just going to miss so many fucking people. It's not fair at all. I want to live in the same town as my friend Diane, sweet Billy, and my wonderful supervisors Jim and Tom. I'm going to miss Amanda, Em, Ro, Sam, Melissa, Emily, Angie, Justin and Jessica and everybody else. It's just too sad to even think about it right now. I can't wait until I get used to Olympia again so it won't be so painful. Tomorrow Mom and I are going through all my things. Then I start researching for the thesis. I'm so scared I won't be able to improve upon it. I'm tired so I'm going to bed. Older Entries |